I already had a finished productivity blog post written and ready to publish. I even made an illustration to go with it. However, after thinking about it for a while, I decided to go in the completely opposite direction.
You see, when you start a degree as lecture heavy and intensive as veterinary medicine is, it’s easy to get caught up in it, and try to be as productive as possible, as good as possible, and work as much as possible. And I’m sure that for some students that’s attainable, but I’m realizing that for me it’s not the case.
In the entry that I had prepared for today, I wrote about wanting to study as soon as I got home from school, even though this is something that I’ve never done previously. I’ve let exercise fall completely to the wayside to make way for even more studying, and find myself reading cell biology at 11 pm several nights per week. And despite all this, I’m not putting in half as many hours as several other students in my year, and end up feeling bad because there’s always more revising to be done, or more tick marks to make on my now seemingly endless “to-do” list.
After sitting down and talking it out I understood that what I want isn’t to be more productive, it’s just to be happy and enjoy what I’m doing. If I continue down the path that I’m currently on, it’ll just make me resent what has been my greatest ambition my entire life. Therefore, my new goal is to be good enough. I’ll continue on studying to my best effort, but I’m not going to try to be something that I’m not. That means taking that extra time to relax or go for a run, or just reading science fiction instead of cell biology, and being able to be proud of what I’ve managed to do, even though I haven’t done as much, or understood as much as my peers. I have six more years of vet school ahead of me, I’m in no rush, and I’m going to enjoy this.